When I was younger I used to look at anorexic people, people who self-harmed and people who had depression and I thought to myself “why would anybody hate themselves so much to do that to themselves?” and now I realise.
vampiresnemeurentpas asked: What tattos are you goign to get?
I only know of three that I want at the moment: I still want my knights in shining armour for Emma, which I’m thinking of having on my thigh or ribs and I still want my bird branch across my shoulders and the other one’s not a deffo want yet. :)
There is no physical item that I want more than a promise ring. Before I get engaged, I want a promise ring. But it’s one of those things that I would never ask for, I would just want him to know. Which I guess means I will never get one.
I sometimes just lay in bed, staring at the empty pillow next to me. I visualise you laying next to me, and looking into my eyes and I feel whole. Then I blink and you’re gone.
I actually want to print this off and put it on my wall. Does anybody know who created/drew this?
Essay.
I miss my friends.
I haven’t hung out with them for more than like an hour in months. A couple of my friends I haven’t even seen in weeks. To go from seeing a group of people every month, every week and pretty much all day, every day to seeing each other once a month if we’re lucky is heart-breaking.
The worst part is; it’s my fault pretty much. I’ve let myself drift away because I thought I could handle it. I mean, if they didn’t want to make the effort to see me then why should I make the effort to see them? And now, I realise I need them more than anything and it’s too late.
I can’t really do anything about it anymore. The only thing left to do is realise that they don’t need me as much as I need them anymore. But another heart-breaking thing is that I don’t think they trust me to be there for them anymore. Even though I’d still risk my life for them and I’d stand by them through the hardest times in life.
What hurts though is the fact that they don’t even seem to miss me at all. Not one little bit. Like I said above, how can you go from seeing me every day to not seeing me at all and not miss me? I mean, forgive me if I’m wrong but yes, you may have made new friends and I totally respect that and I’m 100% pleased for you but I’m someone whose been here for you whenever you’ve needed me.
You can still count on me though. I hope you all realise that. Whenever you need me, I’ll be here. Watching from a distance because I still care about everyone so much that I feel the need to protect you all still. I’ll always see you all as my little sisters.
r.i.p nanny. forever missed, never forgotten.
